[Yeah, okay - he knows he's being far from subtle. But subtle's never really been his style - why do you think he came home with so many bloody noses? Even so, he's trying to approach this carefully, because who wants to hear they're doing a crappy job at civilian life, especially when they're not a civilian anymore in their head?
Bucky's not a civilian - neither is Steve - and he doesn't expect either of them to really, truly act like one. Maybe they never will again. But Bucky seems to have a harder time of it, and maybe it's because he didn't wake up and hear that the war was over in the same, concrete way Steve did. When Bucky goes back, the war will still be on. It's not over for him - not really, not even though he thinks he's dead.
When Steve woke up... the war was half a century in the past. There was no going back. He had to accept it and move on, and SHIELD at least gave him that time. Or tried to, before Loki showed up with his alien army in tow.
So he rolls his eyes at Bucky's expression, even if Bucky's eyes are still closed, because yeah, he can read it, plain as day. And he knows he's doing a piss-poor job at this. But that doesn't stop him.] Yeah. I mean, I'm just saying... being a soldier on the front lines is different than being a soldier in a civilian city during peacetime. [Which is what Captain America is, these days.
A pause.] It's kinda different than being a soldier on a prison barge, too. [And that's what they both are, now. He tries to sound wry, teasing, at least.] Even though it's pretty hard to turn your instincts off.
[Or you don't want to. Steve has this bad feeling that Bucky won't let himself - and it might be because Steve's here. If Bucky's still trying to watch his back, he's never going to give himself a break.
But he doesn't think it's necessarily all about that, either. Bucky's always had his back. just not always with a rifle and scope.]
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Bucky's not a civilian - neither is Steve - and he doesn't expect either of them to really, truly act like one. Maybe they never will again. But Bucky seems to have a harder time of it, and maybe it's because he didn't wake up and hear that the war was over in the same, concrete way Steve did. When Bucky goes back, the war will still be on. It's not over for him - not really, not even though he thinks he's dead.
When Steve woke up... the war was half a century in the past. There was no going back. He had to accept it and move on, and SHIELD at least gave him that time. Or tried to, before Loki showed up with his alien army in tow.
So he rolls his eyes at Bucky's expression, even if Bucky's eyes are still closed, because yeah, he can read it, plain as day. And he knows he's doing a piss-poor job at this. But that doesn't stop him.] Yeah. I mean, I'm just saying... being a soldier on the front lines is different than being a soldier in a civilian city during peacetime. [Which is what Captain America is, these days.
A pause.] It's kinda different than being a soldier on a prison barge, too. [And that's what they both are, now. He tries to sound wry, teasing, at least.] Even though it's pretty hard to turn your instincts off.
[Or you don't want to. Steve has this bad feeling that Bucky won't let himself - and it might be because Steve's here. If Bucky's still trying to watch his back, he's never going to give himself a break.
But he doesn't think it's necessarily all about that, either. Bucky's always had his back. just not always with a rifle and scope.]