[Whatever he means, it's not quite what comes across.
Besides, it's not like it takes very much to remind Steve of why he's here. And he's here because of Bucky, in a way - in a lot of ways. He's here because he messed up and he needs time to work out how he's going to fix it. Only the problem is, with Bucky here...
It's hard to want to go home. And that just makes him feel worse. But then Bucky goes and says that, and Steve's reminded all over again that he's been lying to his best friend ever since he got here, even if it's lying by omission. And it's hard. Especially when he sees Bucky like this, thinking he's dead, thinking it's his fault. It's not Bucky's fault, Steve's damn sure of that.
He thinks he manages to keep the hurt look off his face pretty well, shaking his head.] No, it's -
[He stops. He's not sure he should ask - yeah, the two of them are family, they've been through hell and back, but he's still not sure. Even so, the words seem to come out on their own.] What's your deal? With the Admiral.
[He winces, because maybe that wasn't the best way to ask. But it's out, now. If Bucky doesn't want to answer, he's got to know all he has to do is say so.
But Steve wants to know. Because he knows what he thinks it is. Based on everything he knows about Bucky... he's pretty sure his guess has to be at least partly right.]
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Besides, it's not like it takes very much to remind Steve of why he's here. And he's here because of Bucky, in a way - in a lot of ways. He's here because he messed up and he needs time to work out how he's going to fix it. Only the problem is, with Bucky here...
It's hard to want to go home. And that just makes him feel worse. But then Bucky goes and says that, and Steve's reminded all over again that he's been lying to his best friend ever since he got here, even if it's lying by omission. And it's hard. Especially when he sees Bucky like this, thinking he's dead, thinking it's his fault. It's not Bucky's fault, Steve's damn sure of that.
He thinks he manages to keep the hurt look off his face pretty well, shaking his head.] No, it's -
[He stops. He's not sure he should ask - yeah, the two of them are family, they've been through hell and back, but he's still not sure. Even so, the words seem to come out on their own.] What's your deal? With the Admiral.
[He winces, because maybe that wasn't the best way to ask. But it's out, now. If Bucky doesn't want to answer, he's got to know all he has to do is say so.
But Steve wants to know. Because he knows what he thinks it is. Based on everything he knows about Bucky... he's pretty sure his guess has to be at least partly right.]